If only . . .

Sleepy Hollow Cemetery
Westchester County, New York

. . . I understood why I was put on this planet in the first place.

. . . Steven were not incarcerated.

. . . Azim had not died.

. . . I did not buy this house.

. . . I had not moved to New York.

. . . I had not been manipulated by Shama.

. . . I had had the courage to move to Egypt.

. . . Azim and I had never met.

. . . I had left California right after the divorce.

. . . I had not gained weight.

. . . I had been able to stand up to Craig Fox and his family.

. . . I had had the baby.

. . . I had not married Craig Fox.

. . . I had not dated Larry Landreth.

. . . I had not been adopted by Merritt and Ethel.

. . . I had not been born.